And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him. who have been called according to his purpose.
It still seems impossible to me that my marriage is on the every edge of divorce. It still feels like a nightmare that my husband doesn’t love me anymore and reminds me of that often. It’s still inconceivable that I am going to be a single mother to a one-year-old and a newborn.
God promises something good will come out of this storm that is bringing devastation to my life. God also sees everything perfectly and sees the complete picture. God has full understanding, whereas I am limited to knowing what is going on only in this present moment.
What good can possibly come from this painful divorce?
1.) God is strengthening my relationship with Him. Throughout this process I have developed the deepest and strongest relationship with the Lord that I have ever had. Don’t get me wrong: some days I do struggle with my faith and I lack motivation to pray. However, most days I find myself waking up and immediately going into pray. I am learning more and more every day to depend on God for everything and to hand my struggles and my brokenness over to Him.
2.) God wants to use me to bring hope or comfort to others. When this whole season began for me, I searched different things on Pinterest which led me to so many wonderful Christian blogs on marriage and family. So many of these blog posts brought be so much comfort and peace. I have a hope that by sharing my own journey, I can bring this same kind of comfort and peace to someone who may be in need of my exact words.
After your season of suffering, God in all His grace will restore, confirm, strengthen and establish you.
1 Peter 5:10
I wouldn’t be honest if I didn’t admit to still having some doubts. I can’t understand how any good can come from a divorce when a toddler and newborn are involved. I never once pictured a life where my childrens’ mommy and daddy weren’t together and weren’t in love. All I can think about sometimes is all the things they will miss out on and all the things I will not be able to provide for them.
It is devastating to me that I can not fix this for them. But then I remember that this isn’t for me to fix. This is for me to put entirely in God’s hands and let him fix it according to His will. I may not be able to see the good that could come from this, but He sees it.
I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born.